That's what she said

Saturday, July 12, 2003
3:19 PM

so this is how it feels, raindrops
on hot, dry skin, on parched tongue and lips
sunshine after monsoon storm and
moonlight after day
so this is how it is

from blank body alone with terse verse
to a pair of silhouettes reciting their own rhyme
like breath when it comes after
a three day coma, but otherwise unnoticed
this is how it is

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

Tuesday, July 08, 2003
3:20 PM

this maybe moot and academic for all those who know us, but let me explain anyway.

when people ask us if we're together, we say no. and its not because we're ashamed to be associated with each other-- far from that really. it's just that we feel that what we have between the two of us is ours, just ours.

first, is the privacy part. if you are important enough to either one of us, we tell you. if you're not, it's none of your business. i mean, why meddle? so what if you see us holding hands and being sweet and shit? shut up. get a life.

second is our fear of standardization and labeling. we feel that what we have "transcends" (ic, it's your word!) whatever definition there is of boyfriend- girlfriend relationships. we're more than that. so when annoying people ask us about our status, we give them the showbiz answer: we're friends. and truly, we are. we're more than the usual date on friday nights. we're brother- sister, barkada, etc. Know what? holding hands aside, we're more "friends" than lovers. I laugh at him whenever he trips (which is often, believe me) and he disses me whenever he thinks that i'm becoming kuba .

he understands every little thing i do/ feel. even when i'm PMS ing. when i feel really crappy, he jsut holds me close and says "there, there, ok lang yan. just blame it all on me, whatever it is that's making you feel bad." and he makes me laugh, which is important. when crssing the street he takes the dangerous side. and he makes sure that i tie my shoe laces before we go anywhere.

he's my bestfriend. i've never been able to use that word save for now. and he'll never be my ex anything.

im over the stage of asking what i did to deserve someone like him. love is not deserved, it is freely given. love is sweetest when received as a surprise. kind of like when you've been a really bad daughter but still your parents say that they're proud of you.

so there. that's how we are. and many more details that wouldn't fit here.

and right now, he's at home. i miss him. it's beenfive days since we last saw each other. he's busy, i'm busy. what's to happen?

in a week it'll be five months of us. really now, we dont count, we dont celebrate. i told him last week that we've lasted five months. "oh talaga? i didn't know that." he says. and instead of being annoyed as most "girlfriends" would have been, i was actually pleased. accompanying that statement was a look saying :"five months? but it feels like we met just yesterday. and then i cant wait for tomorrow to come."

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

What about me?

business reporter who hates math. ate to two biological siblings and numerous adopted ones. in love with ice cream and ampalaya (NOT taken together). soul at rest. badly in need of a trip to the beach.


Links

akelle kara gab heather echu

kate julie jobert cleng cy paul jaycee amy klara maya stox emman jam jerry tetel lagsh ate maddy kuya aj she glenn tonie kuya bryant sir arao sir lvt sir john

livejournal google yahoomail upmail OPAC blogger up diliman up manila faster than satan peyups inquirer mypayroll friendster meebo

youthministry the source


talk here




The Past (hala...)

07/01/2003 - 08/01/2003 11/01/2003 - 12/01/2003 12/01/2003 - 01/01/2004 01/01/2004 - 02/01/2004 02/01/2004 - 03/01/2004 03/01/2004 - 04/01/2004 04/01/2004 - 05/01/2004 05/01/2004 - 06/01/2004 06/01/2004 - 07/01/2004 07/01/2004 - 08/01/2004 08/01/2004 - 09/01/2004 09/01/2004 - 10/01/2004 10/01/2004 - 11/01/2004 11/01/2004 - 12/01/2004 12/01/2004 - 01/01/2005 01/01/2005 - 02/01/2005 02/01/2005 - 03/01/2005 03/01/2005 - 04/01/2005 04/01/2005 - 05/01/2005 05/01/2005 - 06/01/2005 06/01/2005 - 07/01/2005 07/01/2005 - 08/01/2005 08/01/2005 - 09/01/2005 09/01/2005 - 10/01/2005 10/01/2005 - 11/01/2005 11/01/2005 - 12/01/2005 12/01/2005 - 01/01/2006 01/01/2006 - 02/01/2006 02/01/2006 - 03/01/2006 03/01/2006 - 04/01/2006 04/01/2006 - 05/01/2006 05/01/2006 - 06/01/2006 10/01/2006 - 11/01/2006


Link me

link button here


Credits

Lay-out by: Nix7
Skins from: Blogskins
Powered by: Blogger