That's what she said

Saturday, January 31, 2004
2:24 PM

wala lang. ang dami kong ginagawa para kay carlos. feel niya talaga siya lang ang subject namin.

hayun, lahat tuloy ng sinusulat ko tunog news story. wala akong ka art- art magsulat.

mamaya uli. kailangan ko pang mag aral ng econ 100.1 meron akong exam bukas. biruin niyo, linggo nag eexam ako sa econ? diyosme.

akelle, miss na kita. lapit na ng 14.

mag wa- one year old na kami. :)

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Friday, January 30, 2004
12:12 PM

This is Pat, sane and sober (but under time pressure, so...)

I have decided to quit my org since things have turned quite messy.

We (rather, I) had a crying session yesterday over the conflicts that have been gripping the organization. I wasn't my in my best self so I couldnt explain my side without tears flooding from my eyes.

I'm quitting not because I hate my orgmates, far from that really. It's just that, all the problems we have encountered so far have dented the friendships that we've managed to create. We took it out on ourselves. We called each other names. We bit each other in the back.

Friends aren't supposed to do that right?

So something's gotta give. To save the friendship, I, the source of this present conflict, am leaving in order to

1. Prevent this from ever happening again
2. Take a breather
3. Concentrate on my studies.

I know that I've invested a lot of effort and love in the org and i don't regret that. I just feel right now that I've reached my limits and that i dont want to further jeopardize the friendships that i have with my orgmates.

Talo na ako.

It's my fault for having such high standards. But then again according to Sir Teodoro standards aren't standards if they're not high. Anyway, my point is, i know i have no right to impose my disappointment on any one. They're my standards anyway.

I've been a hypocrite too you know. The great champion of individualism trying to impose some things (even if they may be "justifiable") to a certain group of people who do not share my beliefs. I have turned into what i hate the most-- dogmatic. And i am disappointed at myself for that. And i will turn back.

I'm slowly regressing/improving towards complete espousal of anarchist/postmodernist philosophy. Wala na lang talagang pakialamanan. Even if i do it out of concern. Even if i do it out of love. The point is, these are not my lives. This is not solely my org. I do not have a monopoly of right.

Again, to the people i hurt with my words and my actions, I apologize.

(Pat in schizo mode)
And to myself, for momentarily turning away from my principles, I apologize as well.
We'll try to never ever do it again.

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Greyers. I need to see you. Isn't it obvious that i'm depressed shit? I'm sorry if im dependent on you guys when things like these hit me. Someone has to cheer me up. Help?


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Monday, January 26, 2004
3:54 AM

gaaahhhh!!!!!!

what is wrong with me?! just a minute ago, akelle and i were talking sweet and sappy, we said our good nights, put the phone down and here i am on the net. getting really shitty over a recently discovered livejournal owned by who else but the ex from csb.

i must really go and see a professional.

and he called her, a night after the lantern parade, or the night of the lantern parade the lantern parade we spent with each other. the lantern parade where i chose to be with him instead of helping out my "orgmates" carry our lantern. this was our first lantern parade, the lantern parade where we sat on the pavement in front of the college of engineering holding each other's hands and passing menthol candies from each other's mouths. that night, that night! he calls up his ex and tells her that one of her "legacies" was to have taught him to be sweeter. what the fuck?

"whenever i see a microwave, i remember you." he says.

am i supposed to freakin laugh at this idiotic statement? what did he mean anyway? that whenever he sees the microwave in their house or the microwaves in Automatic Center in SM North he misses that ex considering that they spent around half a year practically living together? they probably had a microwave of their own.

this was the day after his immersion in Bulacan. the day i walked around the academic oval looking for him. the day he cried on my shoulders, real tears gushing out of his eyes because of the poverty he experienced and hated. and we spend the lantern parade together.

and that same night he calls that ex to talk about their "legacies"?

what the fuck?!

what is wrong with me? is there something wrong with me? hormonal imbalance, mania, depression, anger, stress, information overload. the peso is 56 to a dollar and do i even care?

does this feeling of rage and possessiveness come with "love"? but you're mine, all mine. forget her, dont talk to her. i want to forget her as well. forget your "legacies" (what a lame word actually). you are mine.

and i hate that i look so much like her. i know, i know. the smile, the lips, the eyebrows, the hair. the eyes. even the eyes. and the shape of the face too. was i just the more tolerant version of the same dream you had in mind? the perfect construct of a catholic schoolgirl, smart, sexy, willing, able, feisty, madly in love with you, tolerant and will never throw a cellphone at your face? was i just that at the beginning? am i just that until now? will i be that forever? the girl who you talk to when no one else can or dares to understand your philosophical ramblings? the girl who will wait two hours for you to arrive? am i the more pathetic version? downgraded and easier to manage? all of the programs yet less of the attitude? less of the character? less of the self respect?

aaahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i hate this life!

i feel so high schoolish with all this angst boiling inside me! i need release! i need release! i need release!!!!

i also need money.

everyone = driving me insane!!!!!!

aaaahhhhh!!!!!!

i need a cigarette. now.

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Sunday, January 25, 2004
4:02 AM

i think i need a new set of friends as of the moment-- or, let's put it this way, i need to see my high school friends asap.

things aren't going nicely (to put it gently) in UJP. yeah, you there. you reading my blog. you read it right. the org's beginning to suck. and i am disappointed at why.

NASAAN ANG PRINSIPYO

why does even an illusion of "power over" and "power to" lead people to think that they can and must do whatever they want? even the most illogical and downright stupid things become de rigeur if they manage to wiggle themselves out of it. "ah kasi, training 'to" or "tinutulungan pa nga namin siya e." dont bullshit with me. ive had enough shit thrown at me by people i barely know. you're supposed to be my friends, my orgmates, freakin UP students for crying out loud! Show me some more character! At least be tough enough to stand by the illogical things you do. prove to yourselves that you're not just clowning around whle waiting to be honored as imaginary beauty queens. Nasaan ang Prinsipyo

At wala ng pakapalan ng mukha. Ulitin mo nga ang sinabi mo sakin na wala kang sinabi dati na gusto mo palitan ang sistema. ulitin mo nga sa harap ng buong batch natin. tignan natin kung kayanin ng pride mo. diba kaya ka nga nag mem comm? para palitan ang bulok na sistema ng application? kampante pa naman ako kahit hindi ako nakatuloy hanggang induction dahil alam kong hindi niyo pababayaan ang org. mali pala ang akala ko.

Advocacy and Trainig

Now pray tell how you can explain the things you just did using the twin principles of this organization. You who have been the products of the same system you wanted abolished then but are blindly nurturing now. Iexplain niyo sakin point by point.

Gusto nyo next sem magdagdag kayo ng hazing? para wholistic talaga ang development! pati physical torture meron na rin!

Ang saya saya niyong lahat pero hindi niyo man lang naisip kung anong klaseng trauma ang maaari niyong nadulot dun sa mga nag apply. Hindi na kayo natuto sa nangyari last sem. Nasaan ang prinsipyo?

Hindi niyo ba naisip na kahit papaano, baka masira ang pangalan ng org dahil sa mga pinagagagawa niyo? Baka isipin ng mga tao kung anong pipitsuging organisasyon lang tayo/ kayo. Nasaan ang prinsipyo?

This is plain stupidity. Vulgar display of power is a manifestation of weak character (Nietzsche).

Tirahan na lang tayo ano? Sabihin niyo lahat ng baho ko. Sabihin niyong nagmamalinis ako? Wala akong sikreto kung paninindigan lang ang pag uusapan. Dali. Nag iintay ako ng sagot. Naghahamon ako ng debate. Pero kung away at sabunutan ng mga beauty queen ang gusto niyo, kayo na lang. Hindi ko kayang bumaba sa lebel ninyo.

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On a lighter note. (ripped from Rita's blog)

1. Bakit ka nahuhuli sa pila bago mag-flag ceremony?
LCAP ako dati kaya hindi ako pumipila. Nung 4th year, madalas nasa APSA ako nakikigamit ng PC kaya nalelate ako sa pila.

2. Anong favorite mong bilhin sa canteen?
Mongolian, Chipanese Tops, cheese sticks kendi greenpeas wag lang ELISE!

3. Na-guidance/principal's/csde office ka na ba?
oo. pero kusa kaming pumunta doon nung meron kaming pinagtulungan na taga lower batch. diba kara, jill?

us: "why are you such a compulsive liar?"
lower batcher: "i don't know!"

4. Sinong favorite teacher mo doon?
Teachers. Sirs del Valle, de Leon, Misses Recto, Buen, Ednaco

5. Sinong HATEST teacher mo naman?
Ms. Giron. hahaha!

6. San ka usually tumatambay? Why?
First year sa lib. Oucast ako non e. Feel ko i was above everyone else. hehe. Second year sa labas ng Sports Com, sa calachuchi area, sa caf extension sa field. third year sa sports com sa bamboo area sa calachuchi area at sa field. Fourth year sa field sa calachuchi area at sa.... GREY TABLE!

7. What's your most unforgettable experience sa high school mo?
Ang dami!
first year- tinawag akong heretic ni Ms. Giron, sobrang grade conscious ko, i was the class bitch, i was also the bus bitch (i think) yun lang naman

second year- Magnificat, section ko sobrang kwela, si Kara ang president namin! naka C- ako sa math, yung dati kong barkada, yung play namin under Sir Fernandez. hahaha! KZ, alalahanin mo!!!! silver medal ang batch (kasali ako!) sa sprint relay.

third year- Magnificat, silver medal ang batch sa basketball (kasali ako!)sobrang saya pa rin ng class ko pero olats kami sa lahat ng competition, made an ass out of myself in front of the whole school by joining a declamation contest dressed as a soldier (CAT uniform ng kuya ni KZ). losing that competition. Liza, chem, (they just really go together-- maghanap ka ng ibang chem tutor mo!), ano pa ba? LCAP, grey table pero asa bamboo area pa kami non.

fourth year- MAgnificat, hanggang silver medal lang ang batch sa basketball (kasali ako...),Edsa Dos, Asia Pacific Peace COnference (suddenly, i'm this campus bigshot-- hehe), Hawaii!!!!! Liza, Trina, Grey, doing a really weird dance cover version of Eraserheads songs with other greyers. sleeping under the stars with Mia, my first cigarette, graduation practice, graduation

8. Varsity?
pang intrams lang ang powers ko e

9. Sinong una mong nakilala sa high school mo?
Si Jullienne Santos

10. Sinong mga kabarkada mo nung nag-graduate ka from HS?
Grey Table. Hanggang ngayon naman e. -- :)

11. Na-mimiss mo na ba yung uniform mo?
Yes. and no.

12. Ilang beses mo nang nawawala ung ID mo?
Every year. SOmetimes even twice a year. i've always hated IDs. sometimes i'd lose them "on purpose". they make me feel like a prisoner of sorts

13. Favorite teacher's quotable quote?
"what is the use of knowing someone's name if you cannot go beyond it?"-- RDV

14. Most unforgettable person? Why?
dami

15. Kelan sa tingin mo dadating ang yearbook?
Right after i threaten Trina Sebastian with death by guillotine

16. I-describe ang mukha mo sa grad pic.
prettier than in person

17. Anong binibili mo sa labas tuwing uwian?
DQ walnut fudge blizzard

18. Nakakita ka na ba ng multo sa school?
nope. si Rheza lang. At si Ada joke!

19. Nangarag ka ba sa updating/paghahabol sa graduation?
ngayon? medyo.

20. Anung unang-una mong ginawa right after graduation?
umiyak

21. Anong contests ang sinalihan/napanalunan mo?
Hm.. din

sa intrams- 2nd year sprint- second place kami sa relay 3rd and 4th year basketball, 2nd place lang din

lahat ng songfest chuva na required salihan- 0 ang batting average.

declamation contest- olats din

ANG LOSER KO PALA!!!

22. Kamusta naman ang Intrams?
Nasagot na

23. Favorite Janitor/Janitress?
favorte guard na lang. yung manang guard sa may calachuchi area na lagi kaming pinapanood ni Bibay! hahaha chismosa!

24. Kung papalitan ang color ng uniform natin, anong kulay? Baket?
ewan. gusto ko green pero ayaw ko ng tan. ang off talaga ng dating. sablay talaga.

25. Nasa Friendster mo ba yung crush mo sa HS mo dati?
wala. ilang beses ko na siyang hinahanap

26. Did you ever regret going to ur HS?
Never

27. Kilala mo ba kung sino ang nag-post nito at sino siya sa school?
Kay Rita- presidente nf Forensics at kaibigan ng lahat, pati ni Ada!

28. Sino sa mga ka-batch natin ang dapat napasali sa STARSTRUCK?
Ako. (poker face) kayanin nila.

29. San ka na nag-aaral ngayon? Course?
UP Diliman- Journalism

30. Sino ang peborit labs team of dem all mo?
Si Allison at si Kuchi (tama ba ang ispelling). para silang match made in heaven. Si Jella at si Mika (parang telenovela, nakakaadik subaybayan!) Si Josh at si Bessie (naiinggit ako kay Bessie)

31. Anu-ano ang mga section mo?
1-9
2-2
3-4
4-4



yun na yun? wow. that made my day happier. :)

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Saturday, January 17, 2004
5:55 AM

it's 4 in the morning and i am still awake. as usual, my sleeping patterns are odd. i sleep at 7 pm, wake up at 230 am, sit in front of the pc til God knows when and plop back to bed. this is me forgetting that i have loads of other, more important stuff to accomplish:

1. Study for Econ 100.1- I hate this. This is precisely why i decided to shift to journ (well not precisely, you get the point), to avoid the slew of econ subjects polsci majors are doomed to undergo. can't anyone understand the fundamental fact that i suck at anything related to math? I do, I do!

2. Improve the Powerpoint presentation of my Journalism 102 (data gathering and news writing class) and report on the HoR budget, logistics, staffing summary and employment patterns and logistics- i have been M.I.A. because i am currently covering the House of Representatives. This is my beat. And i have discovered that a. Jules Ledesma is the Chairman of the Committee on Ways and Means (everything that has to do with the national budget-- ergo very powerful committee) but b. He has the most number of absences among all representatives and c. He has the largest pork barrel- roughly 20 million pesos per half a year.

3. Prepare for my QC Hall investigative report- see, I have to make investigative reports of the following govt. offices: QC Hall, DILG, House of Representatives and the Senate. Good luck to me.

4. Prepare for my midterm exams on Journalism Ethics- Jan. 23, 2004

5. Submit my report proposal on the comparative systems of government of Japan and the Philippines. This is for my Polsci 170 class.

6. Do readings on the cultural impediments to the democratization process. 4 chapters of heavy, political jargon for my Polsci 162 class.

All these, I have to accomplish within next week. In other words, I will be lifeless in about 3...2...1....

On another note: The 14th was our 11th month together. Happy! he told me it was a sign that we'd be together for quite a long time still. I really really hope so. Although our engagement is not as official as Pia's, we've been talking about it since whenever and we seem pretty serious. And if i'd have to have a husband, he will definitely be it.

How much of cornballs are we really? Imagine our anniversary--Valentine's Day of all days! My former self would have shuddered. I laugh at the irony.

On Pia: I feel really sad that i havent got any opportunity to talk with her. especially now that something so big is happening to her life. I feel so... excluded. And i'm officially sad because Pia and i used to be so close and we used to have our own world and we'd be on the phone for ages thinking about our problems and our "what-ifs". I miss her so much.

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Faster than Satan will be playing on Feb 13 at the UP Fair courtesy of Jen and the Engineering fraternity EMC squared. haha. hindi ko alam kung pano gawin yung squared sign.

Negotiations with Sigma Delta Pi (EDIT) and Alpha Sigma (Masig) are underway. EDIT will be hosting Tuesday night (not sure). Masig will be hosting Monday night (sure).

For gig schedules contact me through my tagboard :) or through 0919- 6916758. I am now Faster than Satan's de facto manager/ booking agent (as if...)

til next time. :) mag aaral pa ko!

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Saturday, January 10, 2004
11:27 PM

yung may mga contact naman diyan ukol sa mga mag su- sponsor ng UP fair, tulungan niyo naman kami ni akelle. we want Faster to play. sige na...

other gigs are welcome as well.

ang fourth album nila... malapit na, malapit na. we're just finishing the inlay... sa wakas!!!!

bili po kayo ha! at sakin kayo bumili! :)

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Thursday, January 08, 2004
12:21 AM

you know what i'm doing right now? doing research.

on what?

akelle's exes. i dunno. old habits die hard. i am still and i forever will be, a stalker. i've been typing their names on google advanced search and as of now i've come up with one ex's blog. im looking for more details on the other one.

ha.

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Saturday, January 03, 2004
1:04 AM

Musts:

1.clean my room now
arrange my school things esp. my polsci readings, they're the major source of clutter.
2.go to the Makati City Hall- for everyone who does not know yet, i was caught littering eons ago at Makati. Ironically, i was on m way to the MMDA to do research when that happened. I gave the one who caught me the wrong address. BUt still, the summons found its way to me. WHo says the Pinoy postal system sucks?
3.give myself a footscrub before school starts.
4.study for econ!
5.sleep earlier
6.lose weight!!!!!!
7.say "i love you" more often


Must Nots
1.pick a fight with anyone
2.eat meat again
3.waste my money
4.submit homework late
5.smoke too much


Must NEVER EVER
drink a lot of vodka and a lot of tequila in one sitting with apples and pears as my pulutan. last night was the first time i was ever drunk and it did not feel pretty. i was all over the place literally and figuratively-- making noise with the aid of the videoke. I slept with my tummy in pain, woke up in the middle of the night and vomitted like crazy. Good thing i still found my way to the Cr to do that. Today, my stomach still hurts like hell.

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Thursday, January 01, 2004
7:24 PM

The Year that Was

Year 2003 was a year of hallmark moments for me. I can pretty much say that it was one of the most um… dynamic (?) year of my life. Okay, I’ll settle for the word eventful. For once, I can look back at the year that was and say that I wasn’t bored. Oh, and there’s one more thing I can say. I have no regrets.
Maybe because I started the year right—New Year’s Eve last year, my dad and I ended our longest cold war ever (5 months of not talking to each other). And then early part of January, I closed the chapter on a love addiction that was doomed from the start. End of January, I started to get to know a certain classmate in PolSci 14 better. :D
February- Akelle and I started our little romance. The 14th of that month was the first Valentine’s day that I did not spend alone or miserable, okay miserable is too strong a word. Let me change that to… gloomy? The next few months were spent getting to know each other and touring Manila. We started with Manila Bay and moved on to Intramuros, Binondo and Recto.
Then I learned that I had been allowed to shift into Diliman’s Journalism program. This was one of the biggest changes in my life. It felt like I was handed a termination letter that said: “This is to notify you that you may no longer journey to Manila from Antipolo everyday. You may no longer see the block mates that have been such a large part of your life. You may no longer watch the sea with the one you most love in the world. You may already get on with your life and move on to bigger, grander things.” Never have happiness and grief mixed so evenly for me.
But luckily, I met the UJP people. They’re the loud bunch that helped me get through the rocky firsts of Diliman life.
And then of course July was when I turned 18. The Grey met up at Dulcinea in Greenhills- lousy service, fabulous crowd. Grey meets Akelle. The next day, I checked in at Richmond Hotel with my UP Manila friends and some of Akelle’s. We had a blast getting drunk and getting …. J That was the best and most meaningful birthday I have ever had. Not so much symbolically as in “I am now a lady” (yeah right Pat). It was great because my friends made me happy.
September- I burst my bubble pretty hard. I don’t want to eve think about it.
October was the month of two things mainly. I missed the UJP induction for several grave reasons (this I truly regret). And Grey had the annual Oktoberfest at Jilly’s house. Grey reunions never fail to make me happy.
This December, my favorite aunt left for the United States. This kinda crushed me because we were close. We used to lunch out at least once a week.

Why is my nuclear family suspiciously absent from the list? It’s because everything has come full circle. It’s New Year and my dad and I aren’t on speaking terms again. For the same reason as usual—him trying to put a chokehold on my life.
Despite increasing tension in the home front, 2003 was really memorable. For one, I have rediscovered God somehow, which is totally ironic considering that Akelle is a dyed in the wool atheist. Another reason is my shifting to journ. It has made me feel that for once, I’m sure about something in my life. I know. I want to know the truth or find out why there is an abundance of truths. I want to write with a purpose in mind.

And of course, the gift of my best friend, who truly, in the most biblical (and ironic) sense, shares my load in life. Akelle is a gift, a treasure. He understands my world, my language game and my problems and helps me see them in a way that will make me overcome them. When talking about my burdens, he says “you will be strong because you need to be strong.” True.
2003 would have been a year of reclusion. I was ready and willing to withdraw from the world. But because of him I realized that in order to destroy the world/ system that you detest so much, you must first be part of it.

To the friends who have given me joy, a blessed new year.
To my partner in life’s joys and sorrows, in marking the road less traveled to search for the truth or sometimes- just search for solace, thanks. This really, is the only thing I can give you apart from my love.

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I’ve never been a fan of new year’s resolutions, but I’ll give it a try.

1. Taking my cue from Gab (again…) I will set up a freedom fund for myself. Right after graduation, I plan to leave this house and set up camp somewhere else. To do that, I’ll need money.
2. I will reform my lifestyle and my eating habits. I will smoke less and return to my semi- vegetarian diet. This is to save money and lose some weight.
3. I will do even better in school.
4. I will try not to piss my father off. Not to conform to his wishes, just to avoid confrontations.
5. I will clean my room more often.
6. I will spend more time with God and dedicate my energy to him

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7:24 PM

The Year that Was

Year 2003 was a year of hallmark moments for me. I can pretty much say that it was one of the most um… dynamic (?) year of my life. Okay, I’ll settle for the word eventful. For once, I can look back at the year that was and say that I wasn’t bored. Oh, and there’s one more thing I can say. I have no regrets.
Maybe because I started the year right—New Year’s Eve last year, my dad and I ended our longest cold war ever (5 months of not talking to each other). And then early part of January, I closed the chapter on a love addiction that was doomed from the start. End of January, I started to get to know a certain classmate in PolSci 14 better. :D
February- Akelle and I started our little romance. The 14th of that month was the first Valentine’s day that I did not spend alone or miserable, okay miserable is too strong a word. Let me change that to… gloomy? The next few months were spent getting to know each other and touring Manila. We started with Manila Bay and moved on to Intramuros, Binondo and Recto.
Then I learned that I had been allowed to shift into Diliman’s Journalism program. This was one of the biggest changes in my life. It felt like I was handed a termination letter that said: “This is to notify you that you may no longer journey to Manila from Antipolo everyday. You may no longer see the block mates that have been such a large part of your life. You may no longer watch the sea with the one you most love in the world. You may already get on with your life and move on to bigger, grander things.” Never have happiness and grief mixed so evenly for me.
But luckily, I met the UJP people. They’re the loud bunch that helped me get through the rocky firsts of Diliman life.
And then of course July was when I turned 18. The Grey met up at Dulcinea in Greenhills- lousy service, fabulous crowd. Grey meets Akelle. The next day, I checked in at Richmond Hotel with my UP Manila friends and some of Akelle’s. We had a blast getting drunk and getting …. J That was the best and most meaningful birthday I have ever had. Not so much symbolically as in “I am now a lady” (yeah right Pat). It was great because my friends made me happy.
September- I burst my bubble pretty hard. I don’t want to eve think about it.
October was the month of two things mainly. I missed the UJP induction for several grave reasons (this I truly regret). And Grey had the annual Oktoberfest at Jilly’s house. Grey reunions never fail to make me happy.
This December, my favorite aunt left for the United States. This kinda crushed me because we were close. We used to lunch out at least once a week.

Why is my nuclear family suspiciously absent from the list? It’s because everything has come full circle. It’s New Year and my dad and I aren’t on speaking terms again. For the same reason as usual—him trying to put a chokehold on my life.
Despite increasing tension in the home front, 2003 was really memorable. For one, I have rediscovered God somehow, which is totally ironic considering that Akelle is a dyed in the wool atheist. Another reason is my shifting to journ. It has made me feel that for once, I’m sure about something in my life. I know. I want to know the truth or find out why there is an abundance of truths. I want to write with a purpose in mind.

And of course, the gift of my best friend, who truly, in the most biblical (and ironic) sense, shares my load in life. Akelle is a gift, a treasure. He understands my world, my language game and my problems and helps me see them in a way that will make me overcome them. When talking about my burdens, he says “you will be strong because you need to be strong.” True.
2003 would have been a year of reclusion. I was ready and willing to withdraw from the world. But because of him I realized that in order to destroy the world/ system that you detest so much, you must first be part of it.

To the friends who have given me joy, a blessed new year.
To my partner in life’s joys and sorrows, in marking the road less traveled to search for the truth or sometimes- just search for solace, thanks. This really, is the only thing I can give you apart from my love.

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I’ve never been a fan of new year’s resolutions, but I’ll give it a try.

1. Taking my cue from Gab (again…) I will set up a freedom fund for myself. Right after graduation, I plan to leave this house and set up camp somewhere else. To do that, I’ll need money.
2. I will reform my lifestyle and my eating habits. I will smoke less and return to my semi- vegetarian diet. This is to save money and lose some weight.
3. I will do even better in school.
4. I will try not to piss my father off. Not to conform to his wishes, just to avoid confrontations.
5. I will clean my room more often.
6. I will spend more time with God and dedicate my energy to him

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What about me?

business reporter who hates math. ate to two biological siblings and numerous adopted ones. in love with ice cream and ampalaya (NOT taken together). soul at rest. badly in need of a trip to the beach.


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