That's what she said

Wednesday, March 31, 2004
2:20 PM

it's been a long time since i last logged in and updated my blog. the reasons are: final stretch of academic duties, and a terrible terrible flu that got a lot of people worried.

ive been contracting a lot of stress related "afflictions". my hair has been falling out. my skin's drying out, my throat has been swelling up and my head's been spinning around. this is because of all the work realted stress that ive been bravely trying to get over. they all took their toll on my health.

last week, i think i experienced a mini- nervous breakdown, considering that i am prone to bouts of severe depression. i was down with the flu and i was crying in my room, hating the feeling of powerlessness. i went back to my "i want to kill myself" phase. fortunately, because of some mush memories, i got myself together.

so there.

i trying to enjoy what's left of my vacation. sana maka recover ako in time for my internship.

yun alng. nagpaparamdam lang ako sa inyo.



Wednesday, March 24, 2004
3:42 PM

wala akong gana mag post nang maayos. katatapos lang ng lintek na ps 162 exam ko!!!! aaargghhh!!!


Tuesday, March 23, 2004
3:02 PM

hello people... in afew days i will post a decent entry


Saturday, March 20, 2004
8:56 PM

next time i will post something more creative...

A. Copy this whole list.
B. Highlight the things that are true about you.
C. Whatever you don't touch is false.

01. When I was younger I made some bad decisions
02. I don't watch much TV these days
03. I love psychodelic mushrooms
04. I love sleeping
05. I have loads of books
06. I once slept in a bathroom
07. I love playing video games
08. I adore marijuana
09. I watch porn movies
10. I watch them with my father
11. I like sharks
12. I love spiders
13. I was born without hair and I still have no hair
14. I like George Bush
15. I am cool
16. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year
17. I have a jacuzzi and a Porsche
18. I have a lot to learn
19. I carry my knife everywhere for protection
20. I can be really really smart
21. I've never broken someone's bones
22. I have a secret
23. I hate snow
25. Punk rock rules
26. I hate Bill Gates!
27. I love Chinese food
28. I would hate to be famous
29. I am so not a morning person
30. I wear glasses
31. I don't need glasses, except sunglasses
32. I have potential
33. I'm pure Japanese
34. My legs are two different sizes
35. I have a twin
36. I wear a padded bra sometimes
37. I can ramble on about absolutely nothing
38. I'm left-handed
39. I hate llamas, but I'm one of them
40. I don't like horror movies
41. I suck at climbing, but I love it anyway
42. People hate me usually
43. I love pop music
44. I hardly ever go to bed before midnight
45. I hate parking fines
46. I know the national anthem of my country by heart
47. I know more than two languages
48. I can spend too much time on the computer
49. I often want to throw out the computer in a window
50. I live on a ground floor
51. I don't like chocolate
52. I'd like to be more original
53. I've lied
54. Cocks are my favorite birds
55. I want to conquer the world
56. I wonder what happens when I die
57. I've read all books about Harry Potter
58. I love my dog!
59. I love to exercise - which reminds me...
60. I hate chemistry with a passion and math, too!
61. I love to write but I wish I could be as interesting as some people
62. I like changes
63. I hate going to class
64. I am afraid to die
65. I hate dish washing with a passion!
66. My hair is long, brown, and incredibly curly
67. My nails are nine inch long
68. My favorite color is black
69. I like to sleep on the floor
70. I am hopeless at cooking
71. I sucked my thumb when I was little
72. I should be doing something else rather than doing this
73. I am online a lot
74. I hate government
75. I don't have a girlfriend/boyfriend
76. I'm too nice for my own good
77. I love to read, I read as much as I can
78. I don't trust newspapers
79. I like debating
80. I live in a wagon
81. I clean my room once a month
82. I'm scared of american fast food
83. I have a third eye
84. I love Mozambique
85. I don't trust any religion
86. I used to play with barbies only because all the other girls were doing it
87. I wanted to be a super hero when I was little
88. I like listening to wind chimes
89. I'm very disorganized
90. My hair is long and straight
91. I earn a lot
92. I don't like spicy food
93. I keep a diary
94. I can't do cartwheels
95. I can be very lazy
96. I'm sarcastic more often than not
97. I think my hair can be annoying
98. I could be sensitive
99. I love being "ab- normal"


Tuesday, March 16, 2004
11:08 PM

I’m thinking of you again and trying to cry at the same time. I find myself amusing, borderline stupid, even. I spend hours formulating scenarios about us. You and I walking from wherever to wherever, hands clasped tight. We talk about your dream last night, my dreams and the names of our future children. I look into your eyes to search your soul. And you allow me. I see myself standing at the center of your life. I am happy, you are happy.
We walk over to your car, or my car, it depends on the schedule. You get into the driver’s seat (you let me drive when you have a headache) and we drive off into the sunset, still talking about the great miracle that is us. How we met, how we got together… the whole, long story.

And when we’re not together, which is actually possible, we’d talk about the same things we talk about when we can hold hands. Then, we remind ourselves that love is not the only thing we need to live. We also need a little nourishment and some sleep. So we put down the receivers either to eat or to dream about each other.

Borderline stupid, because when I wake up from my day/night dream, I remember that the only thing we both love is our music, not beautiful sunsets nor each other. And the only time I’ve held your hand is when we got the same answer wrong in a quiz and you gave me a high five. I’ve never looked into your eyes; you wouldn’t let me. I don’t have a car and you don’t know how to drive. The times we spend on the phone are negligible. Compiled, they’d generously add up to twenty minutes of airtime—all about the assignments you failed to take down. You don’t love me.

The only real part of it all, I think, is the part where I love you. Where I’m willing to give up and do everything for you. When I wake up, reality shocks me. The pain enters my body again, making me forget that I forgot that you take my existence for granted. I remember that you don’t talk to me; you don’t look at me; you don’t hold my hand, at least not in the ways I want you to, I need you to.

this is one of my older articles about mr. nine months na akong may crush sayo, sorry. i submitted this to peyups last year but it just got posted a while ago. we need a break from all the hard stuff


12:13 AM

I suspect that Akelle is online right now. wala lang.

dumaan lang po ako dito. hello sa lahat nang nagbabasa! :D


Monday, March 15, 2004
4:28 AM

yes people. it's 2:30 AM and i am still awake. I just finished my J 102 newsfeature and it's not as crappy as i thought it would be. considering i made it just two hours ago. right julie? i think it's one of the "tightest" articles i've made lately. here it is. comments welcome, of course.

In the year 2002, 363,340 students graduated nationwide. Statistics form the Commission on Higher Education (ChEd) and the Department of Labor show that with an average of only 1.3 million jobs being created every year and an imposing unemployment rate of 10.1%, these new graduates will face a tough time finding jobs.

Enter call centers, also known as contact centers, which according to’s Career Guide are “communication based service centers used by large companies to handle anything from customer complaints and inquiries to providing technical support.”

Call centers specialize in services, which have been “outsourced” or decentralized by multi- national companies (MNCs) based in Europe and the United States, trying to cut down on expenses. With efficacy in mind, MNCs base their customer care activities where labor is cheap but services are not compromised. As of now, India is the largest center of customer service providers, but because of the distinctive Indian accent, they are only able to serve the British market and parts of the European market.

Here is where the Philippines takes its cue, with its citizens famous for being able to speak English with ease. calls this sector “the brightest spot on the (Philippine) employment horizon today” because it is expected to have generated 24,000 jobs from 2002 to the end of the year.

A cursory look at newspaper classified advertisements confirms that call centers have indeed invaded the Philippines. Companies like Sykes Asia, Infonxx and PeopleSupport advertise vigorously to fill as much as 500 positions for “customer care representatives”.

And because of the great demand for manpower, requirements for the positions can be as basic as a good command of the English language. Peloy Antonio, a Comparative Literature major of the University of the Philippines (UP), first started working in E-Telecare Philippines a semester before his graduation. He left the company only three months later to finish his studies.

“The company accepted me even though I haven’t really graduated yet; I was one of the very few who were in such a situation; most have already graduated and are taking call-centering as their first jobs”, he narrates.

Working in a call center becomes a convenient way of getting around the experience requirement for other job openings. Angelica Cortez, Marketing Supervisor of explains that call centers sometimes prefer new graduates because they are easier to train.

With its lax entry-level requirements, it seems that call centers are contributing solutions to the skyrocketing unemployment rate. Not so, says economist and UP professor Solita Monsod. She clarifies by saying that having good verbal communication skills is actually a very stringent requirement for new graduates. Having a good grasp of English means having had a superb education, something that only the middle and upper classes have in the Philippines.
Antonio says the same thing. He notes that most of his former office mates come from reputable schools in Metro Manila.

Because of this, argues Monsod, call centers do not really
help in the employment of fresh graduates who come from poor families and mediocre learning institutions.

Another issue that concerns call centers is the accusation that it dulls the minds of college graduates. Rosalie de Leon, an International Studies graduate of Miriam College says that the routine work in a call center has made her forget the things she learned in school. “Nakaka- bobo”, she describes

But Antonio sees call centers as, more than anything else, sources of income. “Call centers are very good options for new graduates though. It provides them the opportunity to get the "feel" of a formal (corporate) working environment without so much focus on specializations. It offers jobs, plain and simple, which is why I will never see myself bitching all about how it dulls the minds of individuals. It does, but it puts food on the table, ideals are the first things that are shelved away when faced with a reality like the Philippines'.”

Is there really no better choice for the new graduate? Every year, hundreds of thousands of people enter the labor force with only so much awaiting them. The outsourcing industry, simply known as call centers, assuming that it continues its expansion in the Philippines, can expand only so much.

Which brings us to the future of students lining up for graduation. The CHEd reports that in the year 2002 alone, 42,738 students graduated from engineering courses, 71,237 graduated from education related courses and 106,559 graduated from business related courses. Will the expansion of “the brightest spot on the (Philippine) employment horizon today” be able to absorb the percentage of this workforce that statistics dictate will not be able to get commensurate employment? And for what use would there college degrees be then?


Sunday, March 14, 2004
9:57 PM

is it normal that i finished eating a whole packet of lucky me instant noodles on my own? i just did, that was my dinner.


but then again, i've eaten far worse things than MSG concentrates.


i cant seem to make a good news feature on call centers, specially since peloy (gabby's other half) just turned in his interview and it was *gah* totally opposite what i expected. i thought he would be high and mighty about it, saying "call centers are bad because they make you stupid in the long run". but he wasn't. he was more practical than that.

dang. on to a new angle.

so there. that means that some time in the very near future, i have to get my ass of this computer chair and write that damn article. BECAUSE IT"S DUE TOMORROW.


i haven't heard from dearest in two days. a bad feeling is taking over me.


Saturday, March 13, 2004
9:59 PM

from now on, i will try to post all akelle related updates in our conjugal blog. it's ok?

haha! pansinin niyo yung title!


Thursday, March 11, 2004
11:49 AM

Once upon a time there was a princess who lived alone in a small concrete box along a dusty, concrete highway. She wasn't too pretty-- her hair was not lush, her eyes were not bright and her smile did not light up the room. But she was a princess, so she was pretty in her own way.

A prince chanced upon her box and they fell in love. The princess loved the prince very much and the prince loved her too. They were happy.

And so one day, the prince asked for her hand in mariage. "Will you marry me?" he said sincerely, with his eyes full of love and hope. But he asked this most important question without a ring-- or flowers in his hands.

"No, I will not marry you", said the princess.

The prince, hurt and miserable, cried aloud "but why? I love you and you love me. Nothig else is supposed to matter!"

The princess, trying very hard to control her own tears, replied. "You are a prince, I am a princess. You must first sweep me off my feet."

Did they live happily ever after?


Children must never be exposed to fairy tales because these stories build illusions inside childrens' heads. They create wants that live up to the adult years of a child.

Nakakasira sila ng Central Nervous System.

I hate fairy tales.


Monday, March 08, 2004
6:52 PM

semi decent blog update:

on wednesday my Communication Research 101 class, together with the CMC graduate class on Public Opinion, will be holding a symposium on media effects on the Pinoy voter. I will be a co presentor (partner ko si Ivan P., kung siya man yon or kamukha niya lang pero feel ko siya yon-- naku Tom, sorry :D). Please come if you have free time. It'll be at the CMC Audi from 2pm til 4 i think. Eddie Gil will be there. So we're sure that there's free entertainment.:D

yun lang muna. harassed ako. final stretch na kasi! in two weeks, i'll be technically, a senior! huwaw... pagod na ko. Harem Scarem ba tong naririnig ko? Ewan


Sunday, March 07, 2004
6:05 PM

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you enjoy dancing writing and music. You are
often very poetic and sometimes dramatic. You
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that you can relate to. [please vote! thank
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magkasama kami ni a. ngayon. inaantok siya kasi ang boring ko raw kasama. maya- maya hahanap na yan ng ibang girl. masakit kasi love na love ko siya pero ako di niya love! diba a.?!



Friday, March 05, 2004
2:36 PM


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2:31 PM

one of the prettiest faces ever.. youre my crush :) -- akelle g ave this testimonial to karel. akelle. subukan mong hawakan ako!


disclaimer nga pala dun sa sinulat ko. Stand UP and everyone else related strongly. ginawa ko siyang umbrella term


4:07 AM

The continuation

The 2 two semesters that I've been a student of journalism has taught me that the main role of the press in a libertarian media model is to present truth to the public. The Philippines is supposedly enjoying a libertarian press system, as opposed to the socialist kind where the role of media/ the press is to be the mouthpiece of the government-- a tool in the molding of the public's consciousness.

Now let's bring it down a notch. So, UP's supposed to be a microcosm of Philippine life, eh? Let's dissect the role of the Collegian in UP life.

Every Thursday, the Philippine Collegian arrives at every college. What do students read first? In no particular order:

Leni Bedspacer (comic strip)
Eksenang Peups (gossip column)

Naku po.
What happens to the brain of the normal UP student? It becomes idle, and it becomes blank and apathetic.

Why is that so? One theory:

There is no tangible conflict between the press and the immediate governing body. Im not talking about the UP administration but the University Student Council. A casual scan of the Collegian will show that it is indeed positively slanted towards the Stand UP led USC. The violent UP Fair was immediately blamed on the UP Police when the violence could have been prevented by the USC and the organizers. Was it ever mentioned that Atom headed the UP Fair? Was he ever asked to be accountable?

Why is this so? Simple. The political elite and the supposed fiscalizer are one and the same. Character cross inspections will show the same profile.

Take the SB 2587 issue. All the UP community got were interpretations of the bill. But! But. The Bill was never published in whole (or even in significant parts-- or was it, i'm inclined to say it wasnt). WE never got to judge for ourselves. What we received, from an institution which is supposedly duty bound to show us the truth, was an interpretation of something which is colored by darkly tinted glasses.

But that is an aside. What i'm actually trying to say is that the Philippine Collegian has become nothing more than the trumpet of Stand UP. And with that short, explicit and probably vulgar conclusion I am saying that the Philippine Collegian is just Stand UP's press release.

That is the reason why we are apathetic. That is the reason we are ingnorant. Because the most basic information medium that we have, the simplest and closest to our needs, has not been doing its job. It has not facilitated but manipulated debate. IT has not provided information but provided interpretation. Even its news stories are slanted. I challenge anyone to tell me otherwise.

A caveat though. The assumption laid down here is that we are following a libertarian kind of media system. Threfore all arguments and criticism are based on the standards of that system. But is the press system of UP really libertarian? Or is it developmental? Is its goal not to enlighten us by presenting us with the facts but to enlighten us by molding us to fit their qualifications?

Whatever it is, they should be that way because we the people paying for their existence, the people they are accountable to, want them to be that way.


How long will we let this be the case?


Wednesday, March 03, 2004
11:41 PM

So the same thing happens to Diliman. Am i a jinx or something?

Stand- UP, the left leaning political party here in Diliman which has had a virtual stranglehold on political power for the past decade (aint sure), has managed to win only one Council seat. One.

Atom lost to Kris Ablan, son of Congressman Roque Ablan Jr. Ilocos Norte's 2nd District. Only DM something of IE got into the slate. The tables have been turned literally and figuratively because last year, Stand UP won all but one of the council seats. Ablan was the only person who got in.

Anyway, this is sounding like a news story so:

I think Stand UP lost in the University level because UP students are tired of left leaning rhetoric. Personally, I'm tired of hearing stuff on SB 2587 and then entering a lavatory that stinks. (An aside- to be practical about it, i think that we students should first try to deserve what we get before we ask for more. I'm not saying that we should shut up... i'll discuss this next time.) Intelligent UP students ask for more than just propaganda on rallies. Intelligent UP students, like a majority of Filipinos, want to feel tangible products of governance. I want my CR to be clean, I want my department to standardize its curriculum, I want my teachers to be competent.

Stand UP argues that these will be solved if the UP Budget is increased. Anong mangyayari kung lagi na lang tayo mag iintay sa gobyerno? There must be something immediate done. Stand UP banks on some sense of immediacy. What immediate thing did they do? There's nothing wrong with holding rallies but the university is not supposed to grind to a halt whenever you storm the Senate

Tapos na ba ang mga araw ng tibak? I'm giving Ablan et al one year to show me how much they deserve the community's vote.

Atom and i were texting a while ago, he said thanks when i extended my sympathy. I told him that he should look at it in a positive way since they are a worthy opposition, unlike what other political parties were when Stand UP held power. More on that later.

I think Atom lost because of the FPJ effect. The guy is hardworking, responsible and sincere but unfortunately, his fame and dashing good looks (hehe) worked against him. Siguro dahil ayaw ng mga isko at iska sa "artista". At dahil nag endorse siya ng Ovaltine at Milo (ay! balimbing!) nung kabataan niya, nabinyagan siyang "Artista".

I think it's just logical that Stand UP gives up its monopoly of power.
Now, I'm not as good as Akelle is on Philo. But i understand basic Hegel.

Thesis + Antithesis= Synthesis

Stand UP is the antithesis to the institutional order. By being the institution itself, there is a lack of "struggle" therefore, a lack of results.

layman's terms, walang kumokontra sa kanila dahil sila ang oposisyon pero sila ang naghari. Pati ang Kule, na dapat ay nagsisilbing taga tuligsa sa insitusyon, hawak nila. Pano na yan?

More on this tomorrow.


Monday, March 01, 2004
5:39 AM

in a few hours, i will be back to real life. may pasok na naman.

aaaaaa!!!!!!! Ma'am Carlos!!!!! WHy have you taken over my life?!!

i cant understand a word coming out of Mareng Winnie's mouth

i have crappy CR 101 classmates

i have no more money

i write one sentence paragraphs

i have eyebags larger than before

im still sleepy

i need to do a fucking case study on the prick Mon Tulfo

i need to start, and finish by thursday, my newsfeature for 102

i need to finish my paper on comm theories in the movie runaway jury

and many more



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